I Lose Myself In a Day-dream

is it awful to think of something?
i mean, i thought i was meaningful to him.
i said it was a day-dream because i somehow know that for all this time i was just nothing for that particular someone. i thought he was my prince. but now, no, i don't think so.
he was the best dream i ever had. but who was i to him? i think he just think that i'm just like other typical girl whom he screw with. i just don't stand it anymore.
there's no 'love' between us, he just look at me as his thing to pleasure with. i'm sick of it!
i need someone who loves me, who gives his whole heart to me, who's always there for me, who's understand me, who's caring for me. i need that kind of guy.
i just wake up from a long dream. so i hope that the sun will shines and guide me to the real one.
i hope. hmm.. that's all.

-kuSHERA-